Something I wont actually do...

Just finish reading one of my old friend's blog. 99% of her blog post is wrote about her love story, how she date with her boy, what is their conversation, how sweet is them... after I finish reading, I seriously feel that I'm totally not a good GF, ya is true. I don no how to take care of people, don care how he feel and how he think, I do what I want all the time. haiz... No wonder all my friends said that he got a very serious eyes problem. K, I know la I'm not pretty, galish, or whatever girl behaviour should have, you also cant really find on me. Is my bad...

I promise you that I will improve myself ??? hee....

feel so "geli" to said those word...kaka..

Going out with you after a few hours. hope we have a nice date...

Miss you...

haiz...

My eyes looks like gold fish this few days, coz keep on crying oni. lol... don no why, feel that my tears simply roll out or don no whether they feel too bing inside my eyes d or what, then all rushing out from my eyes. haiz...I'm tired of crying seriously...

coz there are too many problems with me d, and I choose to keep to myself, that why I feel so suffer. this is one of da counsellors said that and darbee also feel that too... Coz recently my temper become worst!!! really worst!!! Angry all da time, feel bu shuang all da time, think negative things most of da time. lol...Til I need to go visit counsellors. lol..

Darbee also talk a lot to me yesterday night, and 80 percent of da conversation I'm crying. lol... Coz what he said is acually very true.. haiz...I make everything looks so complicated no matter da things is big or small. That's y I'm suffer.

Well, I feel much more better after chat with him and her... they really help me much. thanks a lot...

Another thing, my family problem bcame worst and worst each day, which I cant help much oso... This is their business, but don ever fight, shouting, banging things, throwing things during might night k?? seriously we need to rest and not listening da stupid conversation or stupid content that you all argueing. lol...Do you think is fun???

Peoples around me...

Many things happen to me recently, wonder where should I start. haiz.. Most of the things is actually kinda sad or bad. haiz...

Lets start with my FAMILY, erm... all da things still remain the same, just I'm the one who always getting frustrated. Mum always "bla-bing"as usual, she make me hate to go home. I understand that most of the mother acting this way, but mine is different! Very much different with what you guys thinking. Since our "kakak" when back d, the situation at home go worst!!! I really hope I can move out from my house as soon as possible. lol... Dad, keep on his "financial" problem, as I know he still act so "selamber" there, without doing anything. I wonder how to ask him back my money that I help him to settle the certain bill. haiz..

FRIENDS, meet MI member kinda less recently, everyone is busy with their own stuff. Only meet when there is a show for 2moro, then today only we meet each other and practice together. hmm...Feel myself nothing much to talk with them also. Feel that they look at me in other kinda way. hmm...

but recently I'm kinda close with my secondary classmates (8 gang) since I start teaching tuition in da center. Coz 4 of us teaching in the same place, and meet each other quite often. After finish teaching at night then go yam cha together, kinda fun with them. We can talk everything... well, we are planning a trip in the end of this year, tot wanna go langkawi wan, but seem like going to cancel d, due to da incoporation of some other member. So maybe decide to go somewhere near and affortable for everyone la. Cant wait to go trip with them.

DARBEE, haiz... many problems happen between us. Maybe I'm da one who making the problem all the time, but seriously I start to feel ok without him. lol...Since he is damn busy with his working stuff, even weekend also don no he busy with don no what, so we only meet each other for once a week. lol...
And I din cal him for the one whole week and din really text him 1st. Just reply him kinda short if his text me or what. Din really feel wanna chat and meet him oso, since he is so busy and keep on reply me late and hard to meet me. lol...I feel that he don k at all, even I act other kind for the whole full week. lol...
I don wanna end da relationship just like that, same goes to him. He said he wont let me feel this way anymore. I'm waiting to know how will it be in future. lol....

I really hopes everything will be fine. But it seem like a mission impossible to me.. lol....

Something meaningful

I think you guys cant really see the explanation, just click on the picture if you wanna see what is written there.

k, now I know that actually I'm nothing to u guys...

"OMG, get angry then wanna run home d." someone had said that after I done something today. I know you're mature enough. But you got no right to said that to me k?! this is not my childish action. I think b4 I did it. don always think that I'm those stupid, childish, or a girl with stupid temper ok. After go through so many things, at least I grow up and not childish as before. So don ever act like you damn understand me or like my mum that cursing me on whatever I done and what I will get after that. If the same thing hapen to last time, k maybe I'm wrong or again I show out my childish action again. But now, NO!!!!! You better think 1st why I'm acting like this!!!! You were not doing your part good also k???!!!!

I'm trying so hard to arrange my time and contribute with you guys, no matter how. Even to skip my grand family dinner just to go school CHAT with you guys. Ya, I know NOT puntual is our tradition. So I try to make myself accept that. But if you cant make it on time at least you tel us when u come n not telling us gather at what time and youself pula late. Ok, I know you're busy with your own stuff. But I tell you, EVERYONE is busy ok. I'm not doing nothing and waiting to meet you guys. I need to work, I'm not like last time doing nothing after class, skipping class for no reason. I still have a 5 years old brother to take care. But I still try my best contribute with you all. and now this is what I get.

Not only YOU maybe, I know the all of you dislike me. Coz of my stupid attitude or what ever things that you guys don like!!! But at least tell me face to face that you dislike me, and not saying or doing something to hurt me ok. This is not the 1st time. I'm trying not to care about that so much, and what I get from you all???Showing your don no what kind of face to me. It hurt you know!!!!!!!!!!!

I know my skill. move, and everything sucks compare to you guys. I only know how to bring my leg up and down, arching here and there. I got no anygood skill compare to you guys. I'm know not important whether to be in the team or not. I prefer you shoot me or scold me face to face rather than you do and said something to hurt me!!!!!!!

A day to DESA WATER PARK

When DESA WATER PARK with darbee on friday.. is a sudden decision actually, coz we argue AGAIN during da night before.

hmm... actually plan to join angie they all go Genting one day trip wan, but realize there is not much TT gang going plus they decide to stay overnight there, I cant stay overnight there, coz I need to teach class in Saturday morning. lolll..

After cancel da actual plan, we got no place to go d... start to feel moody and so on..and even blame him that why he never bring me to a place before just da purpose to enjoy, take picture and EAT...K, I know I cant blame him for that, coz we din stick to da actual plan in last minute.And of cause, we cant plan it in such a short time right.. I'm so frustrated and said that to stay at home for da whole day then. loll...( k, I know that my temper is bad. Just hard to control it) haiz...then he also get frustrated d, and start our war... until the next morning I "make my face skin to become more thicker" and ask him to bring me there. Guess what he reply? Yes of coz...haha


Wonder why we wil go there right? because I always pass by there while I'm on my way back from bukit jalil to fetch my little sis back from her training everyday. That's y I'm thinking to go there one day.


Well, too bad that I din took any picture there... we're rushing to jump in the pool. haha... We reach there during afternoon about 2pm. Can you imagine how strong the sunlight is, that's why after we enter the main entrance then straight away jump in the pool without further thinking. now only regret that why we din take any picture from there.


The place is nice, the facilities is good. Is totally different from what we expected before we're there, perhaps is kinda expensive for the entrance fee, the adult are need to pay 20 bucks. We thought it must be kinda dirty, and the facilities is old...haha:-) But the bad part is most of the facilities are created for kids, and us as adult only able to play 2 slides. lol..ONLY 2!!! and cost us so much pula..K, i know the place is mainly for those family wih kids, and we pula go kacau kacau. haha...


O ya, the chocolate waffle is super delicious man!!! although is kinda expensive but is nice, it cost about 4 bucks per waffle. Guess what?? I have 2, after I came out from the pool. haha... did I mention that darbee actually bring his bro and hs little cousin bro with us??? hee...feel kinda weird right?? I keep on thinking whether I have any topic interesting to share with them, but I failed to do so...hmm...guys,is really hard k!! but I got treat them waffle after that lo...kaka...


Anyway, erm... considered enjoy on that day la...hehe..
still very regret that I din took any picture from there...haiz....

Kent's birthday...

Max Identity din meet each other since da last round of our competition of Battleground...hmm...even no time to take dinner together..sound like we're doing don no what big business. haha...

until we decided to have a normal dinner with KENT and also TT gang. Then only everyone appear. hee...

How normal we celebrate for Kent?? you will know from these picture....

This is the present to him... 20 eggs since he is 20 years old now.. and a banana with chocolate...haha

you guys must be wonder what happen to his shirt rite?? o ya, and his "BREAST"....akakakakaak

the shirt is actually from TOPMAN, present from RAIN and JET, they bought the most smaller size to him, who kows he still cant really fit in. o ya, the shirt i actually in V coler...and see how he look...

I think is JOSHUA came out with an idea to put 2 MANGKUK in KENT's shirt... and he is enjoy with his wacking move...haha...how funny...

chak...

he forced to "lick" the banana to pretent that he actually blowing the "candle"..

why his birthday without candles??? this need to blame JOSHUA... ask him to buy those big candles, he pula go bought those type of candles...ahahahhahahaha....

I really salute lo...OMG....

Our birthday celebration is always so "NORMAL"....haha...

Happy Belated Birthday Kent..wish you sincerely....

Dinner with "8 GANG"....

well, 8 gang is my secondary school's classmate. Y we called 8 gang??? coz every single of us are super 8 gua... we can 8 about anything seriously, haha... so again we have our gathering... but this time is different, know why?? normally we will gather and had steamboat in somewhere near our area at least once a month.
Everytime i got da info to gather, I will act like "har??? steamboat AGAIN???" everytime we gather also steamboat wan. haiz..

This is the 1st time we decide to gather at FULL HOUSE... haha.. no more Kepong area ...sound excited..hee:-)

have a lot of fun with them... really! we talk and laugh like no body business... gossip about others as usual. kaka... is just FUN!!! and I feel so enjoy with them...

during the meal....

and the game start...hehe...

checking the bath room whether is work anot.. don c!!! haha...

as usual, Posing like no body business...kkakaka...

I love this!!! haha...

ok...is my bad... don vomit la ya...give some "face" la...keke

too bad la, my eyes was seiously red, that's y u saw most of my picture were wearing sunglasses...hmm...

you guys are important to me, even we're not in the same college and not classmate anymore..

FRIENDSHIP FOREVER!!!

Battlegroud 09

at last, we're out from BATTLEGROUND 09...ahaha...you guys must be very curious that why I sound so happy rite??? ai ya, we actually din put so much hope in this competition, just hope we can get into SEMI-FINAL and we did it!!!!!! we're da top 7 for this comp...

well, good job ya MI... everyone were busy with their own stuff, even hard to get more time to practice. even think to get kick out from da comp faster, haha:-) sound so ridiculous right??? forgive us la, the competitors are all too "GENG" d... and our members all busy with their own stuff... really hope to get some time to rest..

Our Prelim 1

the theme is "your own style" something like that la...

we used back our old routine and add more steps la..MARCUS said he like our locking part..ahaha...

but we still din show much about our identity, so we're in da battle category....haiz...

the group we need to battle is "FOX".

they're good...their gal gal style is nice...

we even forgot our steps during da battle lo...but how lucky, really lucky...we manage to move on to PRELIM 3....

the theme for PRELIM 3 is "how asian show da western culture (hip hop) in their culture"

er...u understand what I mean rite???haha...

this theme is fun, u can c some of the group using malay, indian, japan, korea and chinese song to dance...

saw our "CHUN LI" hair style rite?? haha...

comment of judge is quite positive, tot we will when into the battle category again...but how lucky, we save!!
and manage to enter SEMI FINAL...and have workshop with the PRO DANCERS for free!!...haha!!!!

too bad la, we din really took pic during SEMI 1..busy practicing our routine once we're free because we not really ready yet, coz we need to dance with GYMNASTIC's RIBBON!!! OMG!!! 1st, we very happy when we got this, but after practce a few times...haiz, feel like wanna throw or spoil da ribbon. lol...use to dance gymrama is ok, but hip hop??? ahem...REALLY HARD!!

as we expected, we when into battle category AGAIN...

the group that battle with us is "MOVE"...many accidents happen to them, one of their member gt hurt b4 the day of SEMI 1 and cant even perfom..haiz..then, their leader pula hurt after their routine..haiz...
and seriously, we really tot we will be out after SEMI 1,we din even prepare our SEMI 2's routine...due to da busy-ness....lol...
again lucky us...we when into SEMI 2...
tot wanna go clubbing celebrate and enjoy if we're out.. but, haiz...we need to vomit out another routine in a night time...

SEMI 2, we need to prepare 2 routine...

1 is with da 80's style and song, another one is those pass famous movie...too bad, I don even have any single picture of our 80s style la..

the picture that I show above is our 2nd routine (CHARLIE CHAPLIN)  which we got for da pass famous movie..we done it in 3hours!!!...i know this is nothing to feel proud, but forgive us la..we really got no time to prepare so many routine in 1month time....

guess what?!?! we're out after SEMI 2!!!! haha...at least we can relax awhile d....

got a lot of nice experience and know a lot of pro dancer thru this competition, can consider earn a lot d...hehe....

anyway, thanks TT GANG for always be there to support us!!!!

and my coursemates...i really suprise when i saw u guys... thanks a lot....

my family of coz...

and darbee that always provide "OSIM" and medicine to me whenever i feel pain or tired...haha..

and all da ppl that support MAX IDENTITY...

(macam sudah dapat champion) haha...whatever...again, thanks guys...

all the best to the finalist of BATTLEGROUND 09!!!!

love u guys a lot!!!!

I realize...

I start to feel insecure,

I start to worry more,

I start to think the "bad" side as much as I can,

I start to have negative thinking again,

I start to worry that whether I'm important to you or not,

I start to think that am I doing the right decision,

I start to think that maybe I'm another stupid girl to make and bring trouble to you,

I start to feel that you don love me anymore,

I start to feel that you got no more patient to me,

I start to feel that you're wasting your time on me,

I start to feel that I'm not the special person to you anymore,

I start to think that I'm the stupid, and heavy burden to you...

I know you will feel that I'm stupid,

I know you will said I think too much,

I know I'm just a girl to you,

I know I'm worry too much,

I know you will said I don trust you so much like before,

I know you won't understand how bad I feel,

I know you will blame me for making trouble,

I know you don't like the way I am,

I know I'm not your special one anymore,

I know I'm just a problem to you...

This is what I really feel from you...

continue with the pictures...
This is da only tarc's shirt that I feel is nice lo... we got it for free... hehe....

M.I gals...

with Kent...lol... he seem like so proud like that..

with Joshua..

Angku's hat looks so funny...haha

with Jet.... (1901)hhaahaa

da  great singer Joseph...

40th Anniversary

Saturday...

Morning 10-12pm teaching gymrama, afternoon having video shooting with MAX I, night, performing in college for the 40th anniversary thingy...

super tired about that... here to share some pictures with u guys...

us with the make up artist...

is a nice experience for this.. changing cloths in the car, and the car full of cloth.... coz we shoot in those outdoor place which normally wont notice it... tired...but worth...hehe..

after the performance in college, this is da "dun huang" costum... looks like "guang yin" rite???

da MI guys...

with len lui Geradine...

this is my costum during da night performance... looks weird rite?? kaka..

my mum was shock when the moment she saw me in this look....