Something I wont actually do...

Just finish reading one of my old friend's blog. 99% of her blog post is wrote about her love story, how she date with her boy, what is their conversation, how sweet is them... after I finish reading, I seriously feel that I'm totally not a good GF, ya is true. I don no how to take care of people, don care how he feel and how he think, I do what I want all the time. haiz... No wonder all my friends said that he got a very serious eyes problem. K, I know la I'm not pretty, galish, or whatever girl behaviour should have, you also cant really find on me. Is my bad...

I promise you that I will improve myself ??? hee....

feel so "geli" to said those word...kaka..

Going out with you after a few hours. hope we have a nice date...

Miss you...

haiz...

My eyes looks like gold fish this few days, coz keep on crying oni. lol... don no why, feel that my tears simply roll out or don no whether they feel too bing inside my eyes d or what, then all rushing out from my eyes. haiz...I'm tired of crying seriously...

coz there are too many problems with me d, and I choose to keep to myself, that why I feel so suffer. this is one of da counsellors said that and darbee also feel that too... Coz recently my temper become worst!!! really worst!!! Angry all da time, feel bu shuang all da time, think negative things most of da time. lol...Til I need to go visit counsellors. lol..

Darbee also talk a lot to me yesterday night, and 80 percent of da conversation I'm crying. lol... Coz what he said is acually very true.. haiz...I make everything looks so complicated no matter da things is big or small. That's y I'm suffer.

Well, I feel much more better after chat with him and her... they really help me much. thanks a lot...

Another thing, my family problem bcame worst and worst each day, which I cant help much oso... This is their business, but don ever fight, shouting, banging things, throwing things during might night k?? seriously we need to rest and not listening da stupid conversation or stupid content that you all argueing. lol...Do you think is fun???

Peoples around me...

Many things happen to me recently, wonder where should I start. haiz.. Most of the things is actually kinda sad or bad. haiz...

Lets start with my FAMILY, erm... all da things still remain the same, just I'm the one who always getting frustrated. Mum always "bla-bing"as usual, she make me hate to go home. I understand that most of the mother acting this way, but mine is different! Very much different with what you guys thinking. Since our "kakak" when back d, the situation at home go worst!!! I really hope I can move out from my house as soon as possible. lol... Dad, keep on his "financial" problem, as I know he still act so "selamber" there, without doing anything. I wonder how to ask him back my money that I help him to settle the certain bill. haiz..

FRIENDS, meet MI member kinda less recently, everyone is busy with their own stuff. Only meet when there is a show for 2moro, then today only we meet each other and practice together. hmm...Feel myself nothing much to talk with them also. Feel that they look at me in other kinda way. hmm...

but recently I'm kinda close with my secondary classmates (8 gang) since I start teaching tuition in da center. Coz 4 of us teaching in the same place, and meet each other quite often. After finish teaching at night then go yam cha together, kinda fun with them. We can talk everything... well, we are planning a trip in the end of this year, tot wanna go langkawi wan, but seem like going to cancel d, due to da incoporation of some other member. So maybe decide to go somewhere near and affortable for everyone la. Cant wait to go trip with them.

DARBEE, haiz... many problems happen between us. Maybe I'm da one who making the problem all the time, but seriously I start to feel ok without him. lol...Since he is damn busy with his working stuff, even weekend also don no he busy with don no what, so we only meet each other for once a week. lol...
And I din cal him for the one whole week and din really text him 1st. Just reply him kinda short if his text me or what. Din really feel wanna chat and meet him oso, since he is so busy and keep on reply me late and hard to meet me. lol...I feel that he don k at all, even I act other kind for the whole full week. lol...
I don wanna end da relationship just like that, same goes to him. He said he wont let me feel this way anymore. I'm waiting to know how will it be in future. lol....

I really hopes everything will be fine. But it seem like a mission impossible to me.. lol....

Something meaningful

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