you are the most closer person in my life,
you are the 1st person I saw during da 1st moment I came to this world...
you used to "sayang" me so much during my childhood,
I used to put u in da 1st place...
you used to dream that I will be a good girl in future,
you sent me to variety of classes to make me bacome a "great & perfect" person in future...
you sent me to piano, ballet, gymnastic, lots of tuition, wushu, and even singing classes...
you used to put a lot of hope on me...
you used to spend a lot of money on me...
I used to listen to you even you're wrong...
but for now, this are all become past tense...
we fed up to each other...
I don remember since when we started to be in this situation.
since when, you start to yell at me everytime you wanted to tell me something,
since when, you start to scold or disagree with what I did, what I think, and what I decided...
since when our conversation is just between housework and housework...
since when, you started to count everything with me,
since when, you started to complain me to each and everyone of your friends...
since when, we got no any topic to communicate besides money and housework..
since when, you keep on mention that how bad is your luck, how pity are you to have such daughter like me.
do you ever know that I feel very hurt when everytime you started to scold me like no body business??
do you ever know that I really try my best to listen to you even you're wrong just because I respect you??
do you ever know that I try my best to help whenever you need???
do you ever know why I start to become so rude to you??
do you ever know that I really mind that everytime you complaining something bad about me to someone??
do you ever realise that I'm not a small little princess like what you think before??
do you ever know that I have my own thinking and decision in everything I do??
do you ever know that there is not da 1st time I wanna end my life everytime you said somthing hurts me and I want you to regret on what you do to me?????!!!!!!!!!!!!
do you know that what make me turn so rude to you????
you will never know this forever I guess..
Every parents will forever treat their child like a kid. That's a fact that will not change. No matter what, they're still your parents. When I was your age, I used to hate my dad too. Like whatever I do he also will disagree wan. But honestly, sometimes, when you think from a different perspective, everything will be different. Think positively. You will understand why they scold you and stuffs when you grow older. Like how I did and actually felt bad for hating him.
ReplyDeleteI don't wana attend your funeral just yet. Remember that they will always love you no matter how much they complain and I think you should too. =D